I'm sorry to hear you are in such a fix, first off. But a couple of things are in order:
This seems to be the root of the problem. If you really wanted to do something else, then you should have done something else. Period. Teaching is not something you can do if you are not set on doing it- at least, not without side effects, which you seem to be experiencing.I never wanted to teach. I wanted to do something else.
Probably. Unless those "certain people" are your children who would go without because you would be unemployed, you shouldn't really worry about it. I'm going to hazard a guess- parents who paid for your education? Have a serious talk about it. A friend of mine had a son who was not happy at college, but it was a sore point between them- the father was adamant that the son was going to hang in there. The son didn't feel he could meet the father's expectations and later committed suicide- which put the father through much more than a son leaving college would have. School administrators happy? I've never heard of such a thing I wouldn't worry about that either.. I can't even think of breaking my contract because my adminstrators may get mad and certain people would be unhappy. B
Now, here is something I think if you can clear it up, it might make these other issues better:
You are in fact overworking yourself. Exhaustion will affect you psychologically in a very bad way. 3 hours of sleep a night? Obviously, that's no way to live. And what is more, it is self- inflicted. I'm going to hazard another guess (and that's because I've had similar feelings more than once) that you probably spend a lot of time weighing possibilities, mulling each decision carefully, planning each activity out to the nth degree. Commendable, but not sustainable. Remember- you have to have some semblance of normality or you will not function. What you will have to do in order to survive the rest of the school year is manage your time better and not be afraid to make a quick decision, with perhaps sketchier plans than you like, and accept less than perfect results. Also, that every contingincy cannot be allowed for- you will exhaust yourself in the attempt, as you are doing now.While I genuinely do love the children now, and my classroom management skills are excellent, I am still so stressed out. I stay late every day and check into school very early. Then I go home and prepare for five hours, usually until 1am. I do this everyday except for Sunday.
What you must do to solve your problem is resolve to be more efficient in your planning- more act than thought, as it were. Find ways to save time, and set a time where you don't work- every day. Also, enough sleep is important. Set yourself a reasonable bed time and stick to it. It sounds like you know what you are doing- have some confidence in what you do when you do it, and you will spend less time on it.
You might actually find that things look different if you don't grind yourself into the dust. Being tired all the time is not a good perspective on anything.
Finally, there is some joy in life- seek some of it out. I hope you take this as encouragement, but I hope you reflect on why you are doing what you do, and do what would make you most happy.